In honor of laying it all out there.

Today was not one of my best. At all. First, shit hits the fan about how ridiculously broke I am. I will be the first to admit that I saw this coming, and somehow thought that I could just kind of float through a few days of a negative bank account balance. Or can I? Anyway, we are about to find out. There is some food in the fridge, and I cannot spend any money until a week from tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Next, I get nearly attacked by a crazy customer upon entering work. For the sake of my customers that may happen to read this, I am not going into details. That is just not what this blog is about. It is about the journey to get me dancing again. The preparations, the triumphs, and the failures. Speaking of failures, I also receive this from Compagnie Flak today:

Dear Dustin,

Thank you very much for taking the time to audition for the company a few weeks ago but unfortunately we do not have a position for you at this time.  We will keep your information on file and contact you should an opportunity arise in the future.

Thank you for your interest in the company and best of luck in your upcoming endeavors.

Sincerely,
The Company

In all honesty, I was tempted to write them a rejection letter back. However, I have realized that there is no point in wasting energy on words that will only fall on deaf ears. I have to accept this rejection, and I choose to lay it out there because it is a very large part of what I am going through. I want to read this letter, realize what it is I am working for, and gain that much more inspiration from it. While running this evening, as I became tired and kind of hungry and kind of had to pee, I kept repeating my new mantra, that I pulled from “The Fountainhead” by Ayn Rand.

“It’s what you do.”

So what I am going to do is move forward. The purpose of rejection letters are to help me gain momentum.